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Today marks one week since the start of my break. I think that vacations should be titled "world's best creation" for their greatness. Till now I managed to go to the gym several times, game more, play my accordion, go cycling and, ofc, stay at home and not worry about anything. A lot of people use their break to sleep more, but I don't like taking too many naps and waking up late because I think it's a total waste of time -- I avoid waking up after 9am because of that, so that i can have more time before having to cook lunch. Even so, i'm not crazy to wake up at 6.
I plan to keep studying a bit every day, to get ahead on the lessons. But studying is tiring as heeeelll. Some days I just say damn it and go gaming. With that said, I hope this week goes by very slowly. I hate the feeling us students get on sunday night when there's class the next day.

Hi friends!! Sadly, break's over. Looking back, I can safely say that the only things I did well were finish Digital Devil Saga, Terraria, Dom Casmurro (a book) and sleep. I'm not very good at using my time efficiently...
Besides that, this weekend i went to a little city with hotsprings in Santa Catarina (Saint Catherine?). Pretty cool trip! Below there's some pictures I took on saturday (26):
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It's august already... The year is 62% finished. Have you realized that it is going to end soon?
Anyways, I've been traveling, again, these past few days: this time it's my fourth trip to Gramado, Southern Brazil. The city's pretty cool. There's a sudden increase in tourism on winter, when the penguin people come to see snow and turn into ice cubes (I go through that everyday without even leaving the city), so there were a lot of tourists, even some coming from far away like the northeast and even Chile.
One thing that bothers me about touristic cities, besides the crowds, are the price increases. Almost everything gets at least a 25% price increase! Goddamnit, 8 reals for a water bottle?? I'm going to go bankrupt!!
The hotel was fancy, it had a gas fireplace in the hall, card system to open the rooms' doors (didn't work properly though) and even something called "bidet shower" in the bathroom (who uses those?). The beds were really comfy and I slept great on our first day. The second day didn't go the same way because my brother snored through the whole night.
We went shopping and I got some clothes. On saturday we went to a pirate-themed pizzeria and it was Awesome, all the employees wore pirate attires and they even had a breakdancing show in the end. Wow, that's rad.

Here's some pictures:

A small little breakdown, bear with me. There's no way I spent a whole week studying for this term's finals and when I got there, on saturday, turns out it's easy as hell. I thought I was going to get my ass whooped so I was absorbing the books' knowledge like this kid here but in the end that was just unnecessary despair...

The subjects were this year's hardest ones: zoology, geometric optics, eletrochemistry and thermochemistry, combinatorial analysis (!!), probability and plane geometry... Studying for biology was difficult because our teacher, Doc baldness Luciano, doesn't know how to teach! He's great as a biologist but he's not made for teaching: he started the lessons, divided the class in groups and assigned each a phylum to research about, presentate and that's it. I managed to learn about Porifera (my group) and had to rely on online classes to learn the others in ONE week, therefore I didn't go to the gym or attended my other classes during that. Physics and chemistry were ok, but I hate probability and plane geometry and my grades are generally bad because of them (7) so I studied a lot as well.

My studying schedule (for other things) was in hold this week so now I have to catch up.

If I had written this post before the test, rivers of tears would be flowing out and I would be begging for thoughts and prayers. But alas, I didn't have the time for it.

Ok that's it. Bye bye, bye bye

Hey guess what? We're in September and spring is coming soon. The good months of the year start now and last until December. February till July are the bad ones, January and August are neutral. I can't explain why, but I feel like better things happen at the end of the year...
Ironically, my schedule right now is busy as hell and my energy has been going REALLY downhill. Last week I felt like some entity was sucking out my energy and today's monday and I can't take it anymore. We had "classes" almost every saturday last month, I couldn't skip them, and now this week we'll have class on saturday AND sunday (Sept. 7) sooo... It's tough.
Right now it's 9:50 pm and I think I'll play the accordion to change things up, it's been some time since my last session. Goodbye.

Yesterday I went to take the EsPCEx test. It's a nacional exam for those who want to take the army path and begin life as an officer. But goddamn, it's hard... Like tenfold harder than ENEM. But there's also the fact that I don't know half the topics so of course I couldn't hope for it to be easy. Differently from those who complain about getting tired, sleepy or hungry during the exam, my only complaint is that I had to stay 5 endless hours sitting in that HORRENDOUS wooden chair!! My back is not happy about it.
Oh well, today is the second day of the exam and I'm going to take just the basic with me: 1 pen, 1 pencil, 1 eraser, Id card and faith. I feed on knowledge, so I don't need food

I just came back from the exam. I suffered through math and history; geography and english were alright. Thank goodness I was taking the exam just for funsies, because I discovered that I'll need to study a lot more to get approved on this one. I had more than 2 hours left on the exam because I just didn't know how to answer some questions. BRUTAL.
It just so happens that EsPCex is one of my options (out of 5), but it's good to be prepared for it nonetheless.
I had that Wham! song "Everything she wants" stuck in my head on the first day. Today it was Queen's "Stone Cold Crazy" turn.
I just realized that the notepad div (to the right) scrolling makes the headbar scroll as well. Oops. No idea how to fix that.

I skipped school today. Nothing better than some extra time for anything. In the afternoon, I went swimming after months of not doing so and damn bro, my stamina and breath are GARBAGE I couldn't do 50m without getting tired. In the end, I swam 500m and left. I'll come back later to fix this mediocrity.
Another sad story is that it's been 1 month since I last went to the gym because of a stupid scapula pain (in the rhomboid, actually)... Funny that this happens on the year that I promise myself I would work out a lot. Must be divine punishment for my sins.

Weird... This week seemed to last so long but, at the same time, it went by so fast... Quite a bizarre week, full of complications and nuisances... É fogo.
Today I finished learning "Rosalina in the observatory" on the accordion! It's a simple melody that I chose to practice by ear (i'm terrible at it, can't survive without sheets).
Next on the list are to improve La Foule (Que nadie sepa mi sufrir) and to seriously start Por Una Cabeza.

30 days. 30 days is all that remains until summer break. Just 30 more days of classes...
Then I'll be able to spend my time doing what I like - or not. Last year I fumbled a bit and my summer months were over before I could realize. They flew away like birds that leave the nest. Something like that.
But check this out: if I wanted, I could skip all of this month's classes and it would be alright. But my mom doesn't think the same way. She always insists in "oh, don't skip school or you'll won't be able to when you really need it" and the result of that is that I have amazing 4 skipped days in the whole year. Next year's going to be the same stuff.

Update: only 21 days left -- Mark the date: November 13th i'm hopping out school.
Many little episodes happened this week... I posted a video playing the accordion on social media and received compliments from my friends. I wasn't sure if I should've posted it, but since they liked it, it's alright... I just wonder if they all watched to the end, because a 2min40s video is very different from the usual 5s stories on instagram. I think I'll write about this someday.

This week's exams were really easy: a writing essay for geography (unexpected), a normal History one (I expected harder) and a chemistry one (too damn trivial). The last one had 12 questions and I knew the answer to 3 because I saw them while studying on thursday. What a nice coincidence!

In other news, it's worth mentioning the guy on cram school who always takes a 800 page book- "The Brothers Karamazov", Dostoevsky - and leaves it in full view on top of the table. That makes me think "wow, what a showoff" because who reads during a class they paid to attend? There's a new word for it: "performance reading" and it seems that such cases are becoming more evident recently. That's also a nice topic to talk about...

Also in cram school, a girl shattered my bro's heart when she told him she was already seeing someone. He was friendzoned... Ah, these evil women...

I think that's all of the irrelevant stuff I had to tell: 4 little episodes.

I can't say why but I've been feeling melancholic lately. Not in a sad way, but in a thoughtful way, you know? It's weird...

I spent the whole week making a gift for a friend I admire a lot. She asked me for a letter -- snooped around my notebook, found one of the texts I posted here and loved it -- about a specific subject. I wrote and rewrote the letter during three days hoping to make the best version possible to make her happy and I spent another two days making the envelope. I think I've never devoted so much time for a gift.
The party went out yesterday night and it was great. Nothing fancy, just a 15 friends meeting on her house with music, food and gossips. Honestly, that's the best kind of party you can have.

One other thing that happened yesterday was the publication of the approved on EsPCEx's "first phase" and I was on it. Wow. I was going to write an entry around 17/09, when the exam's results came up, saying how I went terribly bad in it and that I couldn't be approved even if there were 8 openings and only 10 candidates. Then when my friend messaged me about it I was like "lmao what the hell is this" cause it really surprised me. Only 4 people from my school were approved: 1 from third grade (senior) and 3 from second grade (juniors, my classmates).
What this means is that I scored more than the cutoff score and now they're going to grade my essay and later choose the approved. I'm sure there's no way I could pass that selection.

After all of this, I came home at 1am, went to sleep and thought to myself: "I can't believe it, today was a good day..."

Welcome to another friday entry. Want to see a recap of the week?
I basically have no more classes. I ditched on monday, tuesday and thursday, and in the others days it was really rare to see a teacher actually give out a lesson. It's pratically ended. Today I spent 5 periods chatting and skipped the english "class" in the bathroom with a few others.
Actually, I've just been going to see my friends. Soon, I'll go 2 months without seeing most of them... And this will be the last summer break that I come back to school after -- next year, summer break comes, unemployment comes along. I'm not ready for it.

Even in the days that I skipped school, I didn't study much. I'm not feeling it, even though I need to: I have a final next friday. Well, there's until thursday night to do so, i think i got time. It's not going to be hard, anyways.

Today is Halloween, isn't it...? Wow, I'm so happy. You can totally see it through my messages.
There's a halloween party happening today, set up by a colleague. I was invited, just as 50 other were. They will have drinks, crazy antics and nasty stuff, all that with costumes on top. Some friends have insisted in trying to convince me to go, but I don't want to. I don't want to go. It's not my type of party. I know what would happen: I would start the party with the guys, but 1 hour after each of them will be trying to score girls with vodka. What about me? I would be there, dying inside, trying to disappear in the sofa, wanting to go home. I just can't socialize with people I don't know. I don't work like that. Maybe the problem is in me for not being able to kiss any random girl in a party like the others. Well, I don't want to go. The girl i'm kinda interested in isn't even going, anyways. But she's not interested in me, so. Nothing changes. What a pain...

Hello friends from the interweb!!
What an... ordinary week. And today is just thursday. In short: skipped school on monday to wednesday, mom did not like that. Cram school classes, studying, music... Class today: 7 guys showed up, but only 3 stayed till the end. We chatted with the teachers about many topics. Banalities. There's a test tomorrow, I've studied enough, I think. It's humanities and linguistics (hate them!!!) and there's a writing essay too, grahhhh...

I noticed that my last entry was really depressive. I'm not always like that. Only once in a while.
I was told my friend "L" drank so much in the party that he intoxicated himself and got sick - and by that, I mean he vomited all over the place. I pity him, but... Good job, why did you drink so much?

And, coming up this sunday...: ENEM!!! Brazil's biggest national exam. This time as a trainee again. Last year my average was 740, this year the goal is 760-780 or more. I'm just afraid of getting lobotomized mid-exam and scoring a lower average than last year...
On the first day the subjects are humanities and linguistics and, as stated on the first paragraph, I hate both. I'm more of an exact sciences guy. "Water and oil don't mix, just as we don't mix with the humanities people"

After the exam I come back to talk about it and, if you're interested, you can read it. But if you're not, that's ok. I'm not going to force you.

Today's relevation day!!! The final judgement day!! You know what day it is? Classes end today!!
Oh well, here I am at the end of junior year... It still feels like it was yesterday when we were in March, April, having the world's most boring classes... And now we're in the middle of November, there are 0 days left until summer vacation and it's going to be december in 3 weeks. Time really is brutal.
On the bright side, there's the break... And on the dark side, there's the break as well... I'm not ready to go to senior year! What do you mean, last year in school? No, it can't be! Nooo!

There's 10 days remaining until my birthday... 18 years is a very serious age. I remember always thinking of being 18 as something very far away when I was 10, 12, 14, 16 years old. And now it's coming to me in less than 2 weeks. What the hell.

Partially against my will, I attended classes this week. These days were spent chatting and fooling around with some friends. We even played gartic phone on tuesday and wednesday during the sociology periods. What a fun little game...
On thursday only me and 2 friends, Lx and G, attended class. For real, the amount of people coming to school was diminishing quickly. No one wanted to go anymore... The teachers even mentioned that the juniors are the most depressed and unmotivated out of all students in the school. How could that be...?
I just remembered that they also used to say that my class, 201, was really great in the beginning but turned insufferable to give lessons some time later. Of course, only goofiness reigned in there. I had 7 bros in this class and many more that I already chatted with and some that I came to know then. Do you know how rare it is to have SEVEN bros as classmates? I'm gonna miss 201...
I feel like my english is really dogshit in this entry. Sorry bt that.

Hii!!!
Ahhh... Monday, shining sun, waking up at 8 without anything to do... Gotta love summer vacation!

I had a nice weekend. On friday I dined at a friend's house; on saturday, I went to a food festival with my partner in crime "Lu" after not seeing him for 11 months. I went by bus and had to walk a lot, I got there 20 minutes after planned but still before Lu showed up. We went real early, before the sudden commotion that happens around dusk, but we were still praying to not find anyone that knew us. When it was time to go back home, I got a little lost in the streets and missed the bus. oops
And on sunday: the second day of ENEM... What a tedious exam. Some math and physics questions fucked me up.

Btw both the fridge AND the clothes dryer broke this week. What an inconvenience

It's 12:32pm right now. I like this time of the day because it means I have, like, 10 more hours to do whatever I want and I'm also more productive in the afternoon. Ehhh, that is, most of the time.
I just don't like noon on summer, because that's when all living beings hide from the burning fire ball we call the sun...

Ahh!! Enem's results are up!! Check it out:
41/45 in linguistics - 36/45 in humanities - 31/43 in natural sciences - 35/44 in math - total: 146/177
Uooou... That's good... But that made me realize I need to study a lot more of natural sciences, math and humanities if I want to have an actually good grade in the exam, since I got wrong some of the relatively easy questions. Well, next year's gonna be grind year!! I hope so...

Update in my terrific accordion journey: On 27/09's entry I said I would start Por Una Cabeza, but plans changed!! I learned how to play Folsense in a week (by ear too -- damn, it's hard af to get the chords right) and I found out that two of the songs I already played - La Valse d'Amelie and La Valse des Monstres - were, actually, simplified versions of the full songs... When I listened to them completely, I was like "say whaat??" and went to finish them. I've already finished off the monsters' waltz and now there's only Amelie's left. By the way, these Yann Tiersen songs are really good, damn. It even makes me kinda want to learn french, but that thought goes away soon after, thank God. Some day i'm learning La Noyée as well.

Hello! Look at today's date: November 25th. Do you know what that means? Yesterday was my birthday... I'm 18 years old now. Yipeee, hoooray, as they say.
I'll need to update the About Me page, but I'll do that some other day...

Since the beginning of the month I've been in a dicotomy between throwing and not throwing a party. "Do or do not... Who do I invite, who do I not invite... How much work would it take? I wonder if they would like it? Or find it boring? What if they do find it boring?? Oh my goodness!"
Well, last week I chatted with a friend and decided to do it. After all, it's an important age. If I let everything pass by while I sit and watch, I'll end up with a really boring life.
Since I took a long time to decide, the invites were sent just 5 days in advance. Sorry, party people.

Anyways, we spent the whole afternoon arranging the lounge -- ps: I opted for a lounge because there's no space in my house for 20 ppl -- and OH MY GOD i hate balloons! It took ages to get a few full. At least the decor was ready before the guests arrived.
Everyone I invited came, except for one. Whatever. I put up an xbox to entertain the guys and food to entertain eeeveryonee!! The snacks and sweets were really good.

We played volley and then came the time to sing happy birthday. When I saw that many people gathered around me, I got shivers down my spine. Oh my goodness!

In the end, everything went alright. What a blessing. I even got one really sweet gift...

Oh well... 18 years... Let's keep marching on to the new days that have yet to come.

It's december already... Let's carol of the bells, put up Christmas imagery with snow and pinecones (in the middle of Summer, mind you) and stuff ads that encourage you to buy and buy and buy..!
Anyways. I wasn't planning to write anything this week. Tbh I really got nothing to say right now. I'm just spending time here because I'm procrastinating on studying: I got an important exam next Sunday. I've studied most of the content but I'm too lazy to go on... I hope there aren't any super specific questions!! I have to do better than last year. As always, my own expectations force me to study as to not be self-humiliated after. But laziness won today... Ahhhhhh!! what a pain...
I still have 4 days left. Send me your prayers for luck if you're reading this and I'll buy you a drink later.

Next week I might do some more interesting stuff since I won't have to study so much (kidding! there's another exam in january. I can never find peace) - Maybe I'll bike around. A few kilometers early in the morning. I'm also thinking of photocopying an italian grammar textbook to get back to learning. I'm always in front of the computer, be it studying, watching shit, playing... To spend even more time on it to study italian, oh God, I would have like 8 hours of screentime daily. Can't afford that.
I might as well write something... There's a text I wrote last month that I didn't publish. Maybe I'll fix it up and post.
I think that's it... I'll see if I manage to do smtn productive now.
Nevermind, some friends just invited me to play
Woooah I fixed the scrolling blue headbar on the sidebar!! Now it's sticky, alright...